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"Take this" She told me All twinkling eyes Little stars in the twilight My tin heart turned into windchimes with the terror She breathed into me "Take me" She whispered in the darkness Calmly. And I heard the Pounding of her tattletale heart. "Thank you" I whispered. Beneath her skin Taking it all in Reaching for her, holding tighter The twist of my smile And my trembling voice Telling on me Always, always telling on me. Taking the tears into my palms Carrying on my lips, the sweetest breath. The tiny transition of pleasure and pain Torture and triumph. The torture and triumph of taking her hand in mine.

Then there is light Your light Our light Glowing faintly in the darkness again And I don't know yet if it is false light if this hope you have given me is just another lie But it's yours and it's mine And it's the first light I've had to follow in a long time

I should have known Because the second I looked into those Deep, dark sweet hot chocolate on a December morning eyes I was sinking and everything about you filled the tunnels inside my chest and my lungs exploded when I searched for breath and my heart pounded so hard, a drum beat within My bones cracked and I remember somehow The way your love burned my skin But things change and I should have known because your kiss was just as empty as your promises

She hides behind her mask Another girl's skin Someone else's lips so soft You can almost pretend That kiss meant something Someone else's eyes an angels eyes Promise everything But she is a demon under that false perfection And you know this But the mask is enough to keep you coming back

I have a disease I carry it Somewhere deep inside my bones Go away It's not yours to hold I must carry it  alone.

This isn't a good night to keep my mind in dark places Where all of the monsters I knew once still live And it turns out they're more real than ever Some days I just want to stop eating Not to be skinny But to be  n  o  t  h  i  n  g This is not a good night for wishing to be hollow Heartless,mindless Free of everything that drags me                                       

You speak sweetly Slowly and softly A loving whisper from your lips For only me to hear For only me to hold inside my chest as a place holder until the day I can take you into my arms I don't understand Why or how It's strange though you don't see how someone could love you But when they don't anymore You can't see where you went wrong Tell me you love me But don't speak Use those lips those hands And love me with them Don't stop until you convince me Until I can pretend that you mean it I've earned the right to make promises That my heart resides With you That you hold it and always will No matter who has

I can't take anymore of this Looking in the mirror And seeing two faces Identical and opposite Seeing two people fighting for the control of one body I don't want to be this thing anymore This person that tries so hard not to love what she should hate and who should hate her But both beings are trapped in love for all of the wrong reasons And in the mirror I see Two sets of eyes The color is all that connects them Because there is a universe full of differences between them And this one body doesn't know Which face to show or skin to wear Or which pair of eyes to see the world with But this body is growing

The truth is I don't know what the truth is or maybe I do Perhaps it's locked away Shoved into a too small box and buried Somewhere in the deepest corner of my mind Perhaps the truth is right in front of me And you can see it But you're too afraid of me to point it out Maybe I'm too scared to tell you Maybe I'm too scared of what the truth is What comes from my mouth Comes from my heart Except for when I'm lying When I'm pretending When I'm telling you No Maybe you Are my deepest darkest secret Perhaps you're the one that has been shoved into a box and buried Maybe I am my own secret Maybe I am The truth is that

It's cold outside again The leaves are falling, like snow Red and gold I'm writing again Poems and stories and letters I'll never send It's autumn and I'm breathing And I'm waiting for something even more beautiful I stepped carefully Around strangers and acquaintances The metal stands were slick with rain water My knuckles were white I held onto my friend tightly I caught a pair of brown eyes and nodded in their direction My eyes said hello Your eyes whispered secrets Linked arms, head on my shoulder And completely alright With just being friends Someone screamed loudly to my right My gaze stayed on the now intertwined f

What have you done to me? a black cloud of agony as emotions crawl. once we experienced paradise, untainted and hand in hand, but your heart drifted away. a sickening pool of lies - tears follow love, follow hate, love taken away. in a haze of sorrow, i still love you.

i keep dead flowers in my window in hopes that they're just pretending.

i know i hurt you and... ... i silently confess, i like that, no... ... i love it. you. not because i enjoy hurting you but because you hurt just for me.

I keep her wrapped in my arms so I can feel her breathe. And I know she exists and she is mine. And I am happy. I spin songs in my head and sew words into strings And weave cloth from my heart And clothe her; my eyes closed; My soul bare. The angel on my right shoulder whispers in my ear jealously, And the devil on the left cannot suppress his envy. But her love is all I need to guide me. So I release these entities and hold her lips against mine. She is a magic show, backlit by fireworks. And I sit in wonder, eyes wide and smiling. Completely enraptured by her and my stomach is churning In anticipation for what comes next. She

There's a blue house waiting somewhere, I can see it in my head. I see it with its many rooms and find myself drawn to it. I let go of thought, it simply crushes me dead, It takes me and breaks me; picks up the pieces and flaunts them. I see this entity embodying more than just a safe place. There is something moving behind, through, outside its doors. It is something I need to see, touch and smell and taste. Something I need to have so bad. Each day I crave it a little more. You can call me crazy or you can love me bare. Either way, I'm going for a while. To that house sitting alone, waiting, somewhere. I need this house, I need a